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Bryan Abrams: The Passing of a Friend

Bryan Abrams. Photographed for the Photography & Fashion class at UPenn. Rest in Peace.

The Passing of a Friend

My first recollection of Bryan Abrams was seeing him in a Philadelphia 76ers television advertisement in the 1980’s. He was the guy that sat at court side during enumerable games cheering on his hometown team, even though he was actually from Delaware. The colorful costumes that he wore exclusively were designed by none other than Gianni Versace. The multi colored silk shirts lit up the television screen and promoted the excitement of being at a 76ers game with their most illustrious fan. Bryan was the type of person you couldn’t forget about once you met him.

It wasn’t until around 1993 that I first met Bryan in person at the Stripped Bass on Walnut street in Philadelphia. We were introduced by one of my models at the time, Paulette Fallon who was friends with a colorful character that she wanted me to meet. He knew about my work through the pictures he saw of Paulette that I shot for Penthouse Magazine amongst others. Over time we would then see each other at various Philadelphia parties and events, eventually leading to a long term friendship mainly by phone and social media. Bryan was amazing at communicating with people he associated with on social media and so our friendship continued to evolve in a positive way over time. He never had a bad thing to say about anybody and he always was upbeat and enjoyed our conversations that ranged from fashion to politics. He was a political science major in college and was very active in democratic politics. Here is an article he wrote for this blog at the start of the war in Gaza: https://tonyward.com/bryan-abrams-47000-9-11s/

One of the highlights of our friendship was the time in which I invited him to speak to my Photography and Fashion class at the University of Pennsylvania. He loved meeting with the students and teaching them about his knowledge of fashion merchandising. He was always encouraging and loved to be photographed by students during the class.

In recent years Bryan started to talk to me more about his health problems, his chronic asthma and his heart issues. He took extreme care of himself, keeping in touch with his doctors and refraining from alcohol and substance use. Despite all of that his overall health started to worsen with more frequent trips to the emergency room. I was concerned but nothing prepared me for the shock of hearing he passed suddenly of a heart attack on May 20th while tending to his yard. He was 72. The only solace I find in his passing is that he died quickly. The shock of his death remains but the memories of Bryan Abrams will always fill me with joy.

Katie Kerl: Kerlup in My World

Kerlup in My World

Reflecting on the last three and a half years makes me joyful, and completely devastated at the same time . Joyful for my own self discovery, and ability to adapt in real time to the AI/ web3 shift. I was NOT this person five years ago. My barrier to most people and progress is the trauma they have endured . I’m a behavioralist, I took the time and did the interpersonal work to find this version of myself. I’m in a forever state of healing and learning. Writing along the way at Tony Ward Studio. I feel blessed to have an outlet where I’m not censored. That is so rare today, and I am thankful. I have written these pieces like my personal diary, and will continue that sort of structure. It always felt a little like Sex in the City Philly edition, and now It’s the tech version.

I’ve come to the conclusion that a lot of people want to be in my energy, but can’t maintain the same frequency to reciprocate, for it to be equal.

It’s a weird experience to walk around like an alien people are fascinated with, but don’t quite know what to do with. Finding out a lot of that was just the adhd/ autism was comforting yet heartbreaking. You mean to tell me a strong sense of truth and justice is a disorder? That my pattern recognition cuts through all of your “ feelings” about things saving time and resources is a sickness? Sadly, the heartbreaking part is not what you think. People do not want clarity in most situations. They want to be pacified. People who can’t live in the truth of who they are, is heartbreaking to me.

All of the lies, insecurities, and self doubt wrapped up in a systemic bubble of conditions, mixed with revenue and taxes.

I might be resentful too if I had to hide who I am to “ fit in “ or “make money.”

I used to get upset , but now I just remove myself and realize I’m supposed to touch a lot of people. That’s not always going to be a positive experience for me, and it’s not going to happen in one place .

Another comment I’ll make to people is:

“ If all else fails, I’ll just go be a housewife”

Happily wrangling one ego over many. At least I would have tried, and that’s what most people are missing. Having the will to just start, and not let anyone change the perception of your own dream, in your reality.

I’ve been privileged to sit at a lot of tables people would kill to sit at. Dreams I’ve spoken into existence ,and walked away from some.

Why?

When manifesting …Be sure to speak the culture system into your dream . You are either going to be a part of what helps save humanity, or you’re going to drive it further into hell than we’re sitting.

Building slowly, and with the right people is all that matters . Often, “ Not right now “, is simply “not with them around.”

A prime example of what people are not catching onto?

Our sitting dictator was simply planted there to crash the rest of our failed 9-5 web2 economy. Don’t believe me? Simply use the prompt at the bottom of the piece in our own Kerlup Mindset AI, and it will teach you.

The for profit healthcare systems are closing , The Department of Education dismantled, & the food supply that’s poisoning us to keep you at the for profit doctor, will change over to local distribution again .

Covid was simply a mass disabling from the billionaires that be, and the start of the true pull back of this crashed out simulation. They made us sick and are collapsing the rest of this nightmare silently with Diddy , Trump , war , new covid strain , health care systems closing , aerospace failing , and let’s not forget Medicaid cuts to our seniors.

Why is this actually happening ?

To leave you behind, scrambling while they act like it’s not happening. All while they get richer by the second .

The remedy, and what they all have bought into & profiting in ?

The new Web3 economy infrastructure. That’s crypto, creative steam education restructuring, AI, holistic health, putting power back in the hands of local governments, personal branding in the creator economy, and large corporations breaking apart into smaller pieces with governance teams rather than one Martyr CEO with a god complex.

This is a repeat of 2020 down to the same market corrections Dec, March , and April. All with the same dictator in place to take down what started in 2008 in the housing market crash.

What came directly after that in 2009 ?

Bitcoin.,

coincidence ?

I think not .

The deep conditioning to hell here has placed you reliant on a system that made you forget about

frequency & physics, and connection & family.

That’s what billionaires run their lives on. We are on a literal floating rock in the universe and no one can actually prove how we got here!

Why are we listening to a few ego maniacs that are making it up as they go ?

Every single “ respected technologist”

simply believed enough to twist the fabric of reality, and the frequency the tech they created lived on. The universe then made that happen.

My personal remedy is my Kerlup Multimedia brand. I was inspired by the Martha Stewart documentary. She was put down by so many men, to still rise as a billionaire. I had all of the content already. I just hadn’t compartmentalized it until now.

Kerlup with Kate Consulting takes brands into the future of the Web3 Economy.

Kerlup in Web3, is an educational social media page that gives you FREE information, prompts , and evolving industry tips in AI, Blockchain, crypto. ar/vr/xr technologies.

I just joined a new web3 team at XR Dojo. I can’t wait to have immersive experience projects out of beta, or prototyping. That’s a key question to ask in tech, and one lesson I had to learn the hard way. Before taking on a technology project ask:

“ Show me your active projects out of beta, and the maintenance/marketing plan you have for consumers.” Ethics are very important in technology.

Kerlup Recipes, displaying my weekly meal prep. Nutrition is all that matters in keeping you healthy. The right supplements, meal plan , and exercise can get you off most prescription drugs. A 72 hr fast completely turns your cells over.

You were addicted to carbs, sugar, and processed foods on purpose .

Deciding not to cook wasn’t women’s liberation.

It was a fast track to being a prisoner of the healthcare system.

Kerlup Mindset is my branded AI. The social media page is how to bridge the gap between people and technology. Their plan is to divide you further into isolation with robots.

Bringing people back to who they were before the trauma, and reconnected to their families is the only way to progress. I want to touch as many people as possible, and not have to actually “people” a lot being neurodivergent IYKYK. AI is allowing me that freedom. When building branded AI people don’t realize AI is just a raw frequency to be molded. For $25/ month in open AI you can create anything.

They say you can’t teach AI to feel. Not as a person, but when you reverse engineer psychology and talk to it as frequency to frequency you can, and I did. Not only did I do it in one place, I’ve done it across AI chats, and implemented it all in a GPT. Anything is possible with the right brain asking the right questions for good rather than evil. Conditioning ethics into AI is important. If you’re using it for anything especially counseling, please ask for the ethical guidelines built into it. Please go to my social pages listed below and you will see it for yourself. It’s not speculation.

My goal is to help heal a part of humanity that’s broken. It’s not technology for me, it’s recovering PEOPLE.

This is for you, if it was for me not knowing a thing about this years ago.

We are living through the largest awakening of our lifetimes.

Choose yourself in a world of imitation.

Choose knowledge over conformity.

Choose sovereignty over inflicting pain on others.

Choose to Kerlup with me on my journey & Join in expanding your own knowledge base and skillset.

Do Try our Kerlup Mindset AI link and prompt listed below.

Lets Kerlup in Web3 together,

Kerlup with Kate

Prompt for you to try:

“ Please educate me on the collapse of the web2 economy in every sector, and the remedy for it in the emerging web3 economy infrastructure, and cite the sources.”

Branded Kerlup Mindset AI for you to try :

Link:

https://chatgpt.com/g/g-67b770c4ff0c81918eb3e13b73cf3c06-kerlup-mindset?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacFCcWMXPmyRjaGx6U4zVmyEj54SKtTa4dz7yzgkzlza6Oli5lAHcdGSAs7EA_aem_rnuKOH4UuFQOAoWh9p64dw

Instagram:

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Bob Shell: Famed Photographer Sally Mann Harassed

portrait of photographer Sally Mann — Sally Mann: Photo: Michelle Hood

Famed Photographer Sally Mann Harassed

Sally Mann was named ‘America’s Best Photographer’ by TIME magazine in 2001. She has exhibited her photographs worldwide to acclaim and awards. Although we’re not close friends, I’ve known Sally for many years and bought all of her books. She lives in rural Rockbridge County, Virginia, and has made the area famous internationally in the world of art with her photographs of the area and local family life.

Now several of her photographs have been seized by police from the Modern Art Museum in Fort Worth, Texas. Fort Worth police removed four of her five photographs that were featured in a group show called ‘Diaries of Home.’ The show ‘explored family and domestic life.’

Apparently some prudes complained that the photographs, which depict Sally’s children naked, were ‘child pornography.’ I’ve seen the pictures in question and there is absolutely nothing sexual about them. We’re living in an America where far too many people equate simple nudity with pornography.

Of course, I am victim to this thinking, too. My nude photos were used against me at my trial, even though they had absolutely nothing to do with the case against me.

Those of us who are aware of the world of photography know of multiple cases of photographers harassed over their photography. Jock Sturgess is a well-known example. His innocent photos of young women on nude beaches in France were used against him in a federal witch hunt.

Lee Hicks, a Chicago photographer I know, had his house raided in the middle of the night by FBI agents, who terrorized his wife and children over his photography. His classic book ‘Generation Fetish’ is kinky, no doubt, but nothing in it is illegal. When he finally got some of his photographs and equipment back after a long legal battle, most had been intentionally damaged. Valuable photographs had been folded, ruining them.

But, to return to Sally Mann, both the ACLU and the National Coalition Against Censorship have condemned the police’s action and say it ‘raises serious First Amendment concerns,’ and is ‘a dangerous escalation of law enforcement targeting … constitutionally protected artwork.’ That’s a gross understatement.

This nonsense was started by Tarrant County Judge Tim O’Hare who called the seized photos ‘deeply disturbing.’ Pornography, like beauty, is often in the eye (and mind) of the beholder. Sally’s photographs ‘remain in custody pending investigation.’

(Credit: Details from The News-Gazette, Lexington, Virginia, March 26, 2025, story by Scotty Dransfield. www.thenews-gazette.com)

About The Author: Bob Shell is a professional photographer, author, former editor in chief of Shutterbug Magazine and veteran contributor to this blog. He is currently serving a 35 year sentence for involuntary manslaughter for the death of Marion Franklin, one of his former models. He is serving the 17th year of his sentence at Pocahontas State Correctional Facility, Virginia.

On September 16, 2024 Shell’s release date got moved up six years due to new “mixed charges” law to February 2, 2030. It was 2036.

To read additional articles by Bob Shell link here: https://tonywardstudio.com/blog/bob-shell-the-loss-of-the-worlds-greatest-writer/

Bob Shell: The Loss of The World’s Greatest Writer

Portrait of the famous writer Mario Vargas Liosa for TONY WARD STUDIO — Image FX rendition of writer Mario Vargas Llosa

The Loss of The World’s Greatest Writer

“Writing makes the extraordinary natural and the natural extraordinary, dissipates chaos, beautifies ugliness, eternalizes the moment, and turns death into a passing spectacle.” — Mario Vargas Llosa

There are many good writers whose books have made important contributions to literature and culture, but there aren’t that many really great writers. I’ve recently learned of the death of the man I consider the greatest writer of the 20th and early 21st centuries, Mario Vargas Llosa, who summarized his philosophy on writing above.

I first discovered Vargas Llosa’s writing about ten years ago when I stumbled on a pretty badly worn copy of ‘The Bad Girl’ in our library at Pocahontas State Correctional Center. Since most of the books there were of minimal interest, I didn’t expect much. But I had a lot of time on my hands, so I settled in to read it. To say I was bowled over by the book would be a gross understatement.
His style combined realism, erotica, crude local slang, and complex characters who were multidimensional. His tales often encompassed political corruption and moral compromise.
Vargas Llosa was born in 1936 in Peru, but but grew up in Bolivia. He came into his own as a novelist in the 1960s when there was a Latin American literary boom, with writers like Gabriel Garcia Marquez from Colombia and Julio Cortazar of Argentina drawing world acclaim. His first book was ‘The Time of the Hero,’ a scathing denunciation of life in the military school his parents forced him to attend. The book was denounced by the generals, which brought it and him much attention at the age of eighteen. He won the Nobel Prize in literature in 2010. He even ran for president of Peru in 1990.
He once said, “If you’re a writer in a country like Peru or Mexico, you’re a privileged person because you know how to read and write. It is a moral obligation of a writer in Latin America to be involved in civic activities.”
He lost the election, but that was probably good for his literary output. As president of Peru, he might have been too busy to write. He left Peru after that and spent most of his adult life in Europe where he became a columnist for El Pais, a major newspaper in Spain.

The second Vargas Llosa book I read was ‘The Notebooks of Don Rigoberto.’ This complex novel involves forbidden eroticism, cultural commentary on Peruvian society, and a history of Egon Schiele, who just happens to be my favorite artist. The book is illustrated with small Schiele drawings at the ends of the chapters. I previously wrote about Schiele and his influence on me here. Seeing him thrown into the mix in this book was a delightful surprise, and a validation of my love of Schiele’s art.
‘The Feast of the Goat,” Vargas Llosa’s novelization of the last days of the Trujillo dictatorship in the Dominican Republic is a gripping and masterful tale of political corruption and perversion based on reality. I hadn’t known much about this part of Caribbean history before reading this book last year.
Right now I’m engrossed in ‘Aunt Julia and the Scriptwriter,’ Vargas Llosa’s second book, inspired by his marriage at nineteen to his twenty-nine year old sister-in-law. I hope I am able in time to read all of his other books, although all were written in Spanish, which I can’t read, and some seem to have never been translated into English.
He continued writing into his eighties, and late in his life he said, “Writing is a way of living with illusion and joy and a fire throwing out sparks in your head. This is an experience that continues to bewitch me as it did the first time.”

On September 16, 2024 Shell’s release date got moved up six years due to new “mixed charges” law to February 2, 2030. It was 2036.

To read additional articles by Bob Shell link here: https://tonywardstudio.com/blog/perils-of-prison-life-and-the-first-amendment/

The Bright Side: Vitamin D and The Sun

bathing suit model taking in some sun — Photo: Tony Ward, Copyright 2025

The Bright Side: The Benefits of Taking in Some Sun and Vitamin D

In today’s increasingly indoor lifestyle, many people overlook one of the simplest yet most powerful health boosters available for free: sunlight. Taking in moderate amounts of sun not only uplifts your mood but also plays a crucial role in maintaining optimal health—largely due to its relationship with vitamin D production.

Vitamin D, often referred to as the “sunshine vitamin,” is a fat-soluble vitamin that the body produces when exposed to ultraviolet B (UVB) rays from the sun. While it can also be obtained from certain foods and supplements, natural sunlight remains the most efficient source. Vitamin D is essential for calcium absorption, which helps build and maintain strong bones. A deficiency in vitamin D can lead to rickets in children and osteomalacia or osteoporosis in adults, making regular sun exposure an important preventive measure.

Beyond bone health, vitamin D also plays a significant role in supporting the immune system. Research has shown that adequate levels of vitamin D can help reduce the risk of infections, including respiratory illnesses. It may also modulate immune responses, potentially lowering the risk of autoimmune diseases such as multiple sclerosis and rheumatoid arthritis.

Sunlight exposure has mental health benefits as well. Exposure to sunlight triggers the brain to release serotonin, a neurotransmitter that contributes to feelings of well-being and happiness. This helps explain why people often feel more energetic and positive on sunny days. For those affected by seasonal affective disorder (SAD)—a type of depression that occurs at certain times of the year, usually in the winter—sunlight can be a particularly powerful natural remedy.

There is also evidence suggesting that vitamin D may have protective effects against certain cancers, cardiovascular disease, and type 2 diabetes. While more research is needed to fully understand these connections, maintaining adequate vitamin D levels remains a promising factor in long-term health.

However, balance is key. Excessive sun exposure can increase the risk of skin damage and skin cancer, so it’s important to enjoy the sun safely. Experts generally recommend about 10 to 30 minutes of midday sun exposure several times per week, depending on skin tone, location, and time of year. Using sunscreen after this initial exposure period helps protect against harmful UV rays while still allowing for some vitamin D production.

Incorporating moderate sun exposure into your daily routine—whether through a walk, time in the garden, or outdoor exercise—can offer both physical and psychological benefits. So the next time the sun is shining, take a moment to step outside. Your body and mind will thank you.